Friend

さしぶりだね
Rainy days recently
From the dark greyish sky to my deepest mind
I can feel my heart is crying like the sky did
I try not to think, But I always forgot to forgot
Your damn face appeared with joy pop up my day always
But then losing sight of you will make me lose control
That's why I always wishes, wish that you can stick with me always

But too bad, there is nothing I can do except wishing
To me, as long as you still remember to call up my name, as a friend
That will be enough, althought I am selfish that
Until I think one day you will be mine, but I can't, I don't want
I can't afford you to like me, I rather hurt myself to remain this situation
I want you to be happy, to be special, to be bright, but not someone like me
It's a pain knowing you, But thank you for making me have the feelings again
At least it proves I am still a human being
Thank you
Friend, that I will try to be one of your friend.only.

Moody

It's been a while
I didn't update anything here.
Well, tonight its a chance for me to relif my pains here.
Recently its very happy and satisfying, been go clubbing, go yam char, go for dining out, go movies, go shopping, everything seems very nice, and it did makes me very happy

But not tonight

I don't understand why, when night time I will have this pain in my heart, that makes me hard to breath, difficult to think, and feel bad to live.
Is this some kind of depression?
Or, I am just being too lonely

People always like to ask, 'whos your GF ar?'
But I always answer, 'Single not bad meh?'

I guess I always being alone, Think alone, act alone, and somehow, I don't feel like want to accept a partner but indeed, Deep inside me says, I need one.

I want someone to hug when I need warm
I want someone cheers me when I need praise
I want someone scold me when I am rude
I want someone call me when I am bored
I want someone to hold when I at outside
I want someone care when I need them

Oh well, I want too much already, too greedy being a mortal.
Hope Tomorrow will be another better day.
Rainy and cloudy days please go away.
Shadow within me fade off
Let me hold my own feelings