There are always things that can't be said
Things that can't exist

Once you cross the border line, and that's all
Everything will be 'saved'
and no restore point, and no restart all over again

Every step you take, is your final judgement

As time goes by, as I grow older
I realise, things that we do, are forced to follow the trend
Or maybe, try to suits people around you but not yourself
You will have to do things that you might don't like it

Now, I am drunk, And I realise, You are still here
And the other thing is, I love you, and I can't forget you
Yet the feeling goes stronger and stronger
People say drunk makes people blur
But I say, Alcohol, strengthen the feeling inside you
I missed you now, Yes I am, more and more
I think of you now, Yes I am, more and more
I want you now, Yes I am, But I can't
For every moment I have in my life now, There is always shadow of you inside it.
But I can't do anything much
I leave myself in dilemma
In a situation that no other can help

I want to love you, but I don't know how
I want to lose you, but I can't let go
I want to Hug you, but I don't have the chance

I know, I am not the one that can stand beside you
And you know, I am just a guy that can't control my feelings
But you never know, how I feel, to hold back the feelings everytime when you are with me

I want to be stoped, but I don't know how
I love you, but I hate you more
For making me emotional, for making me so lose control
For making me, so into you.
And I totally don't know how to react
In front of you.

I don't

Everything are unpredictable, don't you think?

I say, I'm fine, I might turn out sick later
Now she says Okie, But she's not later.

I always wanted to be have a smooth and constant lifestyle
Not much of chances, of course no supprises and bad news coming in from no where.
Face things which very hard but just work hard
Too bad, we are human.
And living in a world full with changes, supprises, bad or good one

I'd say, I am afraid
Facing unknown future, losing someone, missing something, miss out events, left out from society, get myself changed, getting sick, lose myself in no where
Everything in my life without guarentee , everything are not under control
Turn out that I am just a coward, I have no courage to face what coming.

People born in a family, but its destiny that everyone will lose someone someday
Your father, mother, brother, sister, cousins, aunties, uncles, friends, girlfriend, boyfriend
Those precious ones, you can't hold them with you, forever, I can't hold them, forever
Until now only I knew, I don't wanna miss a thing, a single word, single hug, single kiss, single gathering, single dinner with those I like, I love, I apprieciate.

Hope what is left , is not regret.