Is it people that fallen onto someone have mood swing all the time?
I got mine very rapid
I can be very happy this moment and get moody later on
FUNNY!
Things totally out of control
Yet I don't have the will to do it!
I hate you, and I hate myself!
DC! WHY THE HECK YOU SO STUPID!!!
YOU AREN'T YOU ANYMORE!
3/31/2009
3/28/2009
I realise I'm not that strong
Maybe I am just overestimated myself
I thought I can just hang over for 2 more years for the answer
But I find out that it was just a lousy hope that I've got
I thought I have strenght to continue loving you
I wish and I have faith in you
But I realise things doesn't go as I hope
I'm giving out my best to you
You might think that it is nothing but it worth alot to me
You already know it, but you just ignore it
You act like nothing, it hurts me more
All I got it those stupid hope and fantasy from you
I just don't know how to continue like this.
You are trying to be good
But sorry i don't appriciate it
You got it, I am emo, again.
Maybe I am just overestimated myself
I thought I can just hang over for 2 more years for the answer
But I find out that it was just a lousy hope that I've got
I thought I have strenght to continue loving you
I wish and I have faith in you
But I realise things doesn't go as I hope
I'm giving out my best to you
You might think that it is nothing but it worth alot to me
You already know it, but you just ignore it
You act like nothing, it hurts me more
All I got it those stupid hope and fantasy from you
I just don't know how to continue like this.
You are trying to be good
But sorry i don't appriciate it
You got it, I am emo, again.
3/16/2009
Dream
I hate dream.
Either those dreams while you're sleeping, or those 'hope' that you get.
Sure people will say, Dream is GOOD, it gives you something that you wanted the most that you might not get it.
Well, true enough. Sounds like a coward, because they only Dream and not doing it.
I hate both kind of dream, which makes me somekinda phyco-path person.
My dreamland while sleeping can be very scaring and irritating.
Because it's always nightmare based. Its either I get kill by those you-know-what black shadow thingie, or I died because of certain unexplainable phenomena.
Sounds like I have some kinda mental problem right?ha ha
My dreamland change only when certain things happen, Example; when I fall in love, which is the most positive dream that exist in my life can be. Those scenes and actions that never happen(Or i should say i not dare to make it happen) will appear, syok betul tu! haha
OR, when I have great pressure or stress on certain stuff, my dream will force me to recap everything that bothers me in real life. which kinda annoying.
The rest, I don't remember anymore LoL.
Second type of dream, to me is just false hope that drives you mad without notice. And when the dream end, truth reveal, your 'dream' explode like a bubble, and so do your 'hope', 'dream', 'faith' and your 'heart'.
I often call myself a realistic person, but the truth is I lied to myself, I tend to forget, to ignore things that really happening. The worst is, I always 'hope' for things turn well.
Dream give us strength to move on, and to achieve something
But it's not real unless you do something.
I hope my dream can take me to where I want to be.
I hope my dream can make me your man.
Although I hate dream so much.
Either those dreams while you're sleeping, or those 'hope' that you get.
Sure people will say, Dream is GOOD, it gives you something that you wanted the most that you might not get it.
Well, true enough. Sounds like a coward, because they only Dream and not doing it.
I hate both kind of dream, which makes me somekinda phyco-path person.
My dreamland while sleeping can be very scaring and irritating.
Because it's always nightmare based. Its either I get kill by those you-know-what black shadow thingie, or I died because of certain unexplainable phenomena.
Sounds like I have some kinda mental problem right?ha ha
My dreamland change only when certain things happen, Example; when I fall in love, which is the most positive dream that exist in my life can be. Those scenes and actions that never happen(Or i should say i not dare to make it happen) will appear, syok betul tu! haha
OR, when I have great pressure or stress on certain stuff, my dream will force me to recap everything that bothers me in real life. which kinda annoying.
The rest, I don't remember anymore LoL.
Second type of dream, to me is just false hope that drives you mad without notice. And when the dream end, truth reveal, your 'dream' explode like a bubble, and so do your 'hope', 'dream', 'faith' and your 'heart'.
I often call myself a realistic person, but the truth is I lied to myself, I tend to forget, to ignore things that really happening. The worst is, I always 'hope' for things turn well.
Dream give us strength to move on, and to achieve something
But it's not real unless you do something.
I hope my dream can take me to where I want to be.
I hope my dream can make me your man.
Although I hate dream so much.
3/10/2009
Fall
I am thinking to make this blog a little nicer
but somehow my creativity juice isn't enough to do so
So...
Just leave it this way ya.
Everysince i only update this blog just to collect the negative aura of mine.
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Weird to know there is people viewed my blog, this english blog
I am so supprised and I'd like to say thank you to those who so 'KePo' about other people's blog haha.
I wanted to let people know I am fine, although I am not
Or I should say, not VERY but PARTIALLY fine.
I know what is in my mind now, and I know what I trying to do
I know, to get rewarded from the love you pay isn't an easy task.
I'll try and I'll definately won't give up.
There are certain thing that I am very stubborn about.
Love, Money, Health, Freedom, and those funny terms that everybody's chasing LOL
I put love as first place, I love those people I care, and I willing to do everything for that spetacular person. I don't mind I'd get rejected, I just don't want to give up without trying.
No matter what are you, who are you, it doesn't matter to me.
What I want is your love. And everything will be fine.
Yes, my loyal reader, You all get it right, I am SUFFERING from loving someone haha!!
It is not a big secrat anyway, just that it is just one sided ones, Sob and Tears for me.
Shit those fellas that dare to stop me or look down at me!
And thanks to those wish for me, I'll try until the end.
but somehow my creativity juice isn't enough to do so
So...
Just leave it this way ya.
Everysince i only update this blog just to collect the negative aura of mine.
-------------------------------------------------------------
Weird to know there is people viewed my blog, this english blog
I am so supprised and I'd like to say thank you to those who so 'KePo' about other people's blog haha.
I wanted to let people know I am fine, although I am not
Or I should say, not VERY but PARTIALLY fine.
I know what is in my mind now, and I know what I trying to do
I know, to get rewarded from the love you pay isn't an easy task.
I'll try and I'll definately won't give up.
There are certain thing that I am very stubborn about.
Love, Money, Health, Freedom, and those funny terms that everybody's chasing LOL
I put love as first place, I love those people I care, and I willing to do everything for that spetacular person. I don't mind I'd get rejected, I just don't want to give up without trying.
No matter what are you, who are you, it doesn't matter to me.
What I want is your love. And everything will be fine.
Yes, my loyal reader, You all get it right, I am SUFFERING from loving someone haha!!
It is not a big secrat anyway, just that it is just one sided ones, Sob and Tears for me.
Shit those fellas that dare to stop me or look down at me!
And thanks to those wish for me, I'll try until the end.
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